Lately I've been doing a whole montage of depressing stuff which only reflected my mood at the time. But I feel like a bipolar person (no offence to anyone out there who may suffer from this disorder). I experience periods of extreme happiness and then extreme periods of sadness and I'm honestly not about this roller-coaster of emotions. I would like to somehow take control of my life but I feel like I'm in the back-seat watching things unfold.
I have no control, I've sold it to my inner most desires who clearly are not as morally bound as I am. What makes matters worse is the fact that I'm sick and when I'm sick I can't effectively focus on anything (well other than the fact my hair is falling out slowly, my nails are breaking, I sometimes think I'm dying which completely clouds my judgement in the way I do things) (oh right I should explain, I'm often very sick but such is life).
I don't even remember what my train of thought was for this post...
Everything is so jumbled and odd and weird that I don't know what to think...
Uggghhhh!!! And there goes the bipolar thing again.
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